The Beginning

Hi,


I started the 100 Day Healthy Heart Challenge for employees on Monday June 1st with the hope of a new healthy horizon in front of me. I was excited to get all my testing done and to meet people from work I probably only talk with on the phone. I do have some friends participating in the program as well so that even makes it that much more fun and promising...


Wow! How fast those feelings can fade away as things become a little harder and more expectations are placed upon us to food track and exercise everyday. So far I am failing! The first day was great because there was not much expected of us being the first day. But, the nutrition class day came and I forgot about it--too much to do at work. I was here at 7:00 am, just not where I was suppose to be, so then I had to play catch-up--that really makes a good impression... The same day I was to train with my cute trainer Kara but when I arrived I had been so busy during the day I had not eaten nor did I have anything to drink all day--wrong thing to do to start the exercise program out with either. In fact my heart rate was so high that Traci didn't think it was a good idea to push me as hard as I probably should have been pushed to get the proper baselines. I'm certainly glad these people know what they are doing because I would have pushed and given it my all--maybe to my detriment.

Yesterday wasn't much better--No food or drink all day long--ten hours planted in my chair workin' away. No energy or want to even take the dog for a walk.. I'm like in veg mode....

What I feel: I really want to do this and make it work for me but I am so so overwhelmed with my job that by the time I hit home I am mentally and emotionally drained which won't allow me to do what I need to do to get physically active and make this work. I don't have one more ounce of drive left in me at the end of the work day. I'm so tired of it all I just want to sit down and cry---No wait, where's the comfort food my heart and head are yelling to me to find!

No, I didn't find the comfort food--good for me and I do have to say, I have been much more carb/calorie conscience the last couple of days than I have been in a long time. That's good right?

I keep feeling like I shouldn't have started the program and feel very guilty for not giving someone else the opportunity. It is a wonderful opportunity. I have got to find the motivation somewhere......Okay, tomorrow is Saturday and and new day. A day OFF! Yeah! I will try to do better.....